Stealing sweet salt
Seals the silent sunrays.
Serenity is strangely sad
With you .
Heresy:Anguis Britannicus I
Morgan woke up early.The mist hadn't dissipated yet.Slighly dizzy he went out to breath some fresh air,than he remembered,proffesor Septimius would come today.A quick smile flashed over his face,he liked Septimius, he wasn't the kind of man to make compromises,truly fanatic about his philosophy,he embraced the old ways of the greek thinking with a slight twist because he was an atheist.He'd come to Brittannia from Mediolanum to avoid both christian and pagan persecutions.
-Don't follow this religious nonsense,he used to say,you only have one life.Be self disciplined and focused on what you do and never let anyone break your beliefs.Septimius would also teach him ,beside philosophy ,the roman art of orathorial speaking
Father Bernardinus,a respectable priest from the nearby church, on the other side was teaching him the holy scripture.His father insisted:
The Eye of the Storm
The Eye of the Storm
As passion seems to rise from fear,
The fear of throwing in a gaze,
I'm stealing now the truth so near
To the forbidden end you praise.
Completion of the vicious circle,
It strangles me as blood is leaving now my face.
The quest of finding any mortal
That cannot leave this earth without a trace.
I'm touching ground and walking blind
With no more sins now left to mourn.
No path ahead,no path behind,
A traveller inside the storm.
Another step into the right direction,
You watch yourself as goddess of the kin.
Another turn to misconception,
I'm ripping carefully your skin.
You try to scream forbidden words
Envisioning ecstatic sins.
A prayer to the pagan lords...
I'm touching now your inner strings.
The bleeding wax is deconstructing realms
By binding torture in the clash.
Rebirth is near and then it dreams
The elevated clergy of the flesh.
The Beast Within
The Beast Within
The hidden marshes that bestow the gift
Keep luring in and then they hatch
To rip again and then deceive.
Unearthly beasts and angels rise in violence
As i am kissing up your ears and neck.
They're breaking down the silence
As you break.
The poison of my skin and the demonic scents.
The signals that you keep on sending
Whenever you might think it ends,
She's sliding now,along the walls,
Ignoring all,but all of us,
Unable to resist the casual calls,
Pretending that the hope is lost.
Among ourselves ,she raises now the glass
Without the slightest sense of worry.
Forever knowing she's the last...
A master in the bussiness of marking territory.
She's touching now,electrified sensations
The scarring of our souls,the beauty of her face
A war without a declaration...
A senseless love lost now within a maze.
The sun is melting down into a cup of coffee.
Gray,weary rainbows of nicotine addiction
Are touching up the ceiling in a sublime decay.
Enlightened silence brings its own destruction
Forever missing the sanest of the noises,
It shuffles down a bare, cruel laughing
And folds itself by killing off a rumour,
A tingling rumour of some odd corruption.
The crowd of empty souls is building now its coffin
Without the slightest sense of logic,but with reason,
And with their health intact as they are coughing
A hunt begins for one that does not say.
For they have felt the way to that odd something...
To lead,not push,the darkened reason into gray.
The Desecrated Forest
The Desecrated Forest
I'm running through the forest of my fears
Destroying puny anthills on the way.
The green serenity stops capturing...It disappears...
Machine like steps keep hammering the silence that i lay.
The choking smoke of burning leaves
Keeps drying up the blood inside my veins.
The dirty pools reflect the desecrated trees,
A snail is crawling on the void it claims.
The blackened sky keeps angering a nonexistent god,
By mirroring itself in grinded flesh and hollow breath.
Demented sponge like creatures keep reaching for their mud
As they surrender quietly their death.
Forgefulness surrounds me and I kneel,
I'm watching smiling and i yell,
For i have seen the truth behind the veil...
Another vision of my hell.
The Journey to the NorthI walk alone the train is empty.
Some child laughs,his mother holds him tight.
I watch the snowflakes,still so tempting.
The frozen windows keep flowing through the night.
A sudden halt,the snow is showing power,
Alarming rumours of uneasiness and cold.
The people though don't act like cowards...
They all seem happy,wise and old
So after many frozen moments
The shadow of these rails is real again.
There are no promises of torments...
I'm careful as i disembark the train.
But nothing could prepare me for the frostbite.
Through all the snowy storm,i feel again alone,
A simple smile though,barbaric like a sunrise,
I smile for i have made my journey home.
DechristianiseI'm watching as you try to reach
My truth,your truth and all of our lies.
I cannot understand the beauty of this leech
That keeps you slave.You cannot rise...
The rigid crisp morality you follow
I bend with easiness and pride.
This warm and useless faith...so hollow
I break... and then you tell me that you've cried.
You bathe yourself in masochistic sorrow
And drying up yourself in some sadistic dreams.
I beg of thee be free tomorrow
And feel again the flow of life within your limbs.
What a Wonderful WorldI’m noticing things
I didn’t before;
Things that I
Just can’t ignore.
Kids getting shot
For the colour of their skin,
Loving being treated
As though it’s a sin.
Sexism running like blood
Through the veins of the media,
Kids killing kids
In High School Hysteria.
People dying instead of
Being who they are,
Children getting shot down
As they reach for the stars.
Faith forming the target
For society’s arrow,
You’re either in too deep
Or you’re way too shallow.
The faithful using the Prince of Peace
To excuse their hatred,
And yelling ‘terrorist!’
At the followers of Mohammed.
Women walking the streets at night
With fear in their hearts,
Men being told to ‘man up’
When their soul is in parts.
Children starving to death
In the land of plenty,
Bigots with medieval views
In the twentieth century.
dancing on a tightrope
I am dancing on a tightrope,
springing toes eloping with
the gentle slope, the soft incline.
My hands are warm, entwined with air
that faintly shines (still echoing
with your delight). My fingers smile.
And as you sing, your sunset words
now send me undeterred to meet
the height of birds. And step for step,
no fear and no regrets have I:
my safety net--it is the sky.
I'm Only HumanI'm only human
I make mistakes
Yet I'm always trying
To save some face
I'm only human
I lie and I cheat
Yet I will never
I'm only human
I whine and I cry
But it doesn't mean
That I won't try
I'm only human
I make mistakes
But I give it my all
No matter what it takes
I cut my self,
To keep my heart on its proper shelf
If I do this,
Nothing goes amiss.
I keep things inside,
Long ago the love inside me died.
My emotions shown are few.
I will pay my dues.
Make everyone think I'm fine.
Make them feel I'm fine.
I watch the blood flow from my veins.
I stay locked away,
In my cell, in my chains.
All I see is darkness, I know no day.
I shed no tears,
I show no fears.
I've done this for years.
I am an actress.
Showing no distress.
My life is a stage,
The spotlight, tis a deathly cage.
I don't let them see
I'm a mess.
I show them what they want to see.
Who would dare?
I am alone.
If death could smileIf death could smile, he'd have your face
He'd offer the same fake embrace
Pacts sealed with blood
Broken before the final thud
No longer in this place
I've come to hate your face
Sterling intentions rusted out
Whispered lies all about
Spreading venom in your wake
Good intentions, oh so fake
It was always all for you
Nothing else would ever do
Slowly you stripped and mined my heart
As my mind was torn apart
Playing games with sweet desire
Waking up infernal fire
Driving me towards the brink
Making it so hard to think
Yet still I followed you, soul bound
Until the truth I found
I've found my way out of this hole
But all things have their toll
So you've yearned to be more?
Let me slam the final door
The Broken Patterns in my headI have broken patterns in my head
Fighting between living and wanting to be dead
I win the fight every single day
No matter what, I choose to stay
The burning pain that sears inside
The emotions that I try to hide
I wear a mask to keep it all away
Keep the horded masses at bay
Faking the the smile I hide the pain
Close my eyes and wish for rain
Standing up straight, I am strong
Refusing to cower, fighting against what's wrong
Wish that I could break free
Find a new way to be..
I talk of renewal and change so much
But I've only ever felt the softest touch
The circles I follow, they come back around
The same arguments, the same things I'm bound..
So when I say that I long to be free..
Perhaps what I mean is, I don't want to be me..
I do what I have to, I try to survive
The pain lets me know I'm still alive
So when the bitterness piles into a wave
I drown myself, I no longer wish to be saved...
But someone always comes along
And once again I have to be strong
The rock, I hide so many crac
Wish I Could
Wish I could turn back time
Wish I could stop the fall
Wish I could see the future
Wish I could change it all
My DiseaseMy fingers bleed words
that my lips cannot say.
When they try to trickle out,
I scowl and turn away.
It may not be contagious,
but it is a disease.
Holding myself deep inside,
it's getting hard to breathe.
Lies come so easy,
to cover up the truth.
It’s like my second nature,
grown from my very youth.
It’s deeper than conviction,
more earnest than a thought.
It’s my way
It’s my life
It is my disease.
Beyond Your ScarsYou see the scars upon your wrist
Another flaw added to your list,
And you're too scared to leave behind
The secrets and pain you hold inside.
You hate the path you chose to follow
It leaves you feeling cold and hollow.
You feel too trapped to turn around
To your grief you fear you're bound.
You hide your sadness by your smile
And it protects you for a while,
Until it's time to face the fact
That no one no longer believes your act.
You self destruct, but you're aware
That it won't free you from despair,
You feel it helps you find some peace
For only a moment, you're at ease.
Beyond the flaws that you perceive
You hold courage and bravery,
And there is strength that you contain
You're more than the sadness you obtain.
You see the scars upon your wrist
You feel the scars that inside exist.
Don't be afraid to leave behind
All the pain you've kept inside.